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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I have Been Told the Complete Opposite Before

Okay, 3 people today have asked about the lack of up updates, mainly because when time chunks happen it usually means I am in some phase of disaster.

Really not the case, I think that I am actually punishing myself, not really sure why, but I have not been focused lately. Between the whole GM filing bankruptcy which trickled down to me loosing my dental, vision, and mental health care coverage. (now you do not have to be my best friend to know that I am blind as a bat and heavily dependant on mental health care mood stabilizers- here to fore referred to as 'don't kill the assholes around you' pills)

Then I have missed a loved ones birthday and instead of just apologizing and doing a whole belated birthday thing, i have chosen to try to make the couch a time machine and wish myself back three weeks (not working, still trying). I am aggravated at myself for not being better at my job yet, despite the influx of double the work, and despite the huge complicated foreign customer base, the 8 months i have been doing this are not enough to make me feel any more confident than I did 7 months ago. (Rome was not built in a day, but I am pretty sure it was destroyed in one.)

I have been battling both the cable company and gas company for awhile to no real satisfaction. (they had better hope I can still get those 'don;t kill the assholes around you' pills, because they would be first) I am totally freaked out about money again, (refer again to GM). And my time is not my own, I have my plan and then it does not come to pass, and I get so frustrated that well, I need the pills. Did I mention I had seven cavities filled (they are taking out the old fillings from my childhood that are slowly deteriorating and then replacing with new ones - work that was going to spread over the next two years, and now is being done in one week.)?

Plus, the soldier's wife and kids are going to be here for a week, which means lots of company and lots of work. No stress there.

Oh well, it will all just work out, it always does, but in the mean time, I will just have to cling the fact that the dentist told me I had a little mouth. Yep. Never have I been told that!!! Sweet, a positive item to cling too!!! Stop laughing!


themom said...

Wow, your plate is definitely full. I wish you luck in dealing with "all the above." So many have been hit hard by this recession and major bankruptcy filings by large corporations. Hang in there.

uniqueygirl said...

I just had my parents in from SC. I had to stay up all night Sunday and did not go to bed until Monday night at 11:30 pm. I got up early and did it all over again. Many people came over both days. The second day was much more stressful...I do not envy you. P.S. My son is afraid of policemen. One came up to him at a gas station and called him by name(aka Tank). Apparently my son dropped everything and was scared out of his wits. "He looks really scary with his uniform on. I wouldn't mess with him if I didn't know him!" To hear him tell it is halarious!!!

April said...

Where have you been? I miss reading about your life. Hope everything is okay!

A Musing Mom said...

Yikes!!!! That is a lot for one person to swallow all at once! The dentist thing would put me over the edge!!!! Hang in there! We here in cyberworld are here for you! :)